Saturday, July 4, 2009

More nightmares..

I woke up in the middle of the night in excruciating pain. I groggily stared at my hands in disbelief, unable to determine if the pain was real or not. The pain lessened, then disappeared as I turned my hands over several times searching for the source. I laid back, trying to piece together what I remembered in my head.
In my dream I had been at work, on a normal shift. The first call we took was at a school. When we arrived, I felt a sudden burning on the back of my hands. I looked down as the skin on my fingers sizzled and bubbled. Quickly I inspected my arms, looking for the source of the horrific burns, but found none. I immediately wrapped them in guaze, but kept quiet and continued the call. Throughout the day, call after call, the burns continued up my arms to my elbows. I sat down behind the wheel, squeezed my eyes shut and sobbed in pain until a sharp cracking sound startled my eyes open again. I was sitting in the rig, it was pitch black and an orange glow was around me. I recognized the freeway exit immediately, saw the downed telephone pole in the rearview mirror. The pole that had made the cracking noise as it fell and blocked my only exit out of the fire. I was trapped again, and time I was alone. My stomach churned as the skin on my hands and arms peeled off. I cried again, already knowing my radio was dead, already knowing what was going to happen. The smoke started to fill the cab of the ambulance through the vents, but this time I made no attempt to get out. I screamed.

"What's wrong?"
"I had a nightmare."
"About what?"
"Nothing, I'm fine. Go back to bed..."

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